God shines in our brokenness

Trying to prove how righteous I am instead of proving how broken I am and acknowledging God and letting Him shine in the brokenness.

I spend so much of my day trying to convince myself that I am good enough, that I am righteous enough of for God and hoping He will love me. At the end of the day try and go over all the things I did right that God may approve of to try and persuade myself I am a good person. If I instead spent that same amount of time in gratitude to God and how He takes every shame, every insecurity, every failure, and ever worry and doubt and makes them right through Him, how differently my day would end.

I am spending so much of day trying to prove to myself that I am something I am not, and failing. I have done nothing good in my life apart from God. In my own human nature I am always broken and at at fault, always in conflict with myself.

If I surrender every success and good thing I have done that still leaves me feeling empty and unworthy, and instead give that all back to God, I am left with nothing but gratitude and feeling loved.

But you did not honour the God who holds in his hand your life and all your ways. - Daniel 5:23